I am the type who has a career path in mind. No, I am the type who loves plan ahead of time.
I was even decided what to take up in college back when I was still a sophomore! I think ahead of everything and it is both good and bad for me. The good thing is that everything will run smoothly if things are well planned in the first place. When I plan something, I see different angles of it, maybe that’s why I like playing chess. The pros and cons of a single move that would affect the whole game. Let’s put this in plain words, I overthink – and it frustrates me.
Despite the horoscope saying that a Gemini tends to be indecisive because of the twins personalities, I am more of the other side. I’ve seen and met indecisive people in my life that I would never want to be like them. See, I easily learn by example and even if I missed out the lesson, at first sight, I push myself to learn from it the second time around. Yes, I am sometimes hard on myself.
When I started working, right after college, I was so lucky to be handled by two wonderful bosses. I looked up at them up until today. Their grace in working, their wits, their passion, their work ethics, and their work values. Amazed by their selfless acts of teaching me everything they know about business, retail, operations, sales, and how to understand the holistic of it, I said to myself that I want to be like them someday. That could be the most simplified version of it but no. I said to myself, “I want to be a manager like them by my 30s”. Not just any manager, but a respected and a very good one. Someone who won’t really apply for that position but it will be given to me because the company would see me fit and deserving of it. Ang Dami kong terms sa sarili ko and sa fate ko. But seriously, that’s my constant reminder in my working life. Of course, I still have other life goals that are in the same clause like this one but they are too many to enumerate and I might get off the topic. Lol. Maybe next time.
That is why I accepted to start from the rank and file, humbled myself into learning almost anything thrown in front of my face. I became a sponge in learning and I am the happiest to successfully complete a task or two – especially if it would be my first time to do it. I ran my career life based on doing the best that I can and with the mixture of confidence. I would admit, whenever work times were dark, I question God’s presence. And whenever work times are favorable, I forget He who grants me the favors. I was so ungrateful – until I decided to follow Jesus.
This year, I still am celebrating my 27th year of life and I was then again reminded by this specific career goal. As I attended the Glow in the Dark session from B1GFridays, I was reminded that I was being too frustrated by my career goals and that I forget God who has a plan perfectly laid out for me. I had this incident that became my eye-opener of my work status. I would never divulge the details anymore but that night, I cried hard. I cried hard and knelt my knees to God asking for His guidance. No, not simply asking for it but begging for it. While bawling my eyes out, I begged for His provisions. That night, for the first time in my life, I lifted up my career goals to Him. I prayed, “God if you still want me here, I will stay. But if your will is to put me in a different place, I will take it no matter what.” I said that prayer last May. I lifted it all up to Him. First time ever, I admitted that I needed help from Him and I found myself saying, “Lord, bahala ka na sakin.”
Give your burdens to the LORD, and he will take care of you. He will not permit the godly to slip and fall. Psalm 55:22
There’s a saying that goes, “When we work, we work. But when we pray, God works.” And I firmly believed it now. I am serving a faithful God. He provides for those who believe and He is a loving Father who accepts you no matter how many times you try to drift away from His love. I have a loving God. I realized that all I need is to lift everything up to Him and cast my worries away. I am God’s overthinker daughter and I should know how to completely trust in His timing because I know, He is always on time. I now learned the difference between knowing and trusting on what God can do. He is one amazing God!
From the night I said that prayer, a month and a few weeks passed and I finally got a sign from God. As an overthinker as I normally Am, I checked every pros and cons and different angles of it before making a move. To put it clearly, I am now resigned from my current employer. I am still rendering my 60 days turnover. I know that my new workplace and new role will give me difficulties but I know it will be worth it because the grace of that work will all be coming from God. I will truly testify that when you have a God that I am serving, nothing is impossible! He works amazingly in perfect timing and all made perfect in my weakness.
“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses so that the power of Christ can work through me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
I am an overthinker.
I am weak.
I need saving.
God took care of my career path in a way only He can arrange it. I am now 27 years old, an incoming manager in my field and yes, one of my career goals came 3 years early for me. Indeed, God, You are Amazing!
Since one of my career goals are checked off the list, I now need to find a purpose for it. God gave this to me for a purpose and that’s what I am going to fulfill next. It is truly great to be loved by You, God.