Total Surrender

Total Surrender

Is it just me or is my blog post title sounds like a movie title? Lol. Anyway, today marks the official day that I become unemployed. Yep, after a year and few months with my previous employer, I had to make a tough decision to leave because of both foreseen and unforeseen circumstances and I cannot think of anything else to say but ‘thank you’ to the management. God is Faithful to His children and He knows what is the best for me. I just have to trust Him. In my years in the corporate, this is the very first time that I resigned with no new company to transfer to; I know, it was a risk jumping into.

If you had the chance to read one of my previous posts on how God took care of my career path, this is another taste of it. Along the way, as I enjoy His gift of work right after the other, I forgot why He placed me there. I forgot my purpose and I forgot Him, who gave the blessing. I was slowly making work as my idol and a lot of struggles came to me at work by the time I started losing focus of Jesus. I eventually accepted that leadership depends on your prayerfulness and I understand that I can never glorify God if ever I stayed and conform to the culture. Plus, I was becoming a mess along the way, losing focus on the work outputs just because I lose sight of what matters most – living Christ-like.

I also praise God for allowing me to rest for a week or so as I filed my remaining days on leave already. All of my staff were surprised that I had to leave sooner than expected, however, I know that’s the best step to do. I was surprised that they gave me a wonderful gift on my presumed last day before going on continuous leave. I honestly love the gift and I never wanted anything else.

“Don’t copy the behavior and customs of this world, but let God transform you into a new person by changing the way you think. Then you will learn to know God’s will for you, which is good and pleasing and perfect.”

Romans‬ ‭12:2‬ ‭NLT‬‬
Talent Management (incomplete) Team with the HRD Head

I couldn’t get enough saying that their gift is the perfect gift for me because I love handwritten letters and I keep them as long as I could. I even keep letters from my elementary and high school years!

A life is not important except in the impact it has on other lives. – Jackie Robinson

I cried when I read their messages. I couldn’t believe the impact that I instilled with them. I lift everything and everyone I left to God and that may their hearts seek Jesus as well. I have no hidden grudges to the management and I am nothing but thankful for the opportunities and lessons they taught me. 

Thank you SO much, for allowing me to work with you for a year. It was a short but worthwhile stay. No long posts on this one – just grateful. 😊❤️ No goodbyes, just see you around. Oh and, Advance Happy 50th Anniversary! 🎉

As for me, I already started sending out my updated resume and choosing where I can start over. I actually had a lot of interview already and I understand the tedious selection process in managerial posts considering that I am in HR. I am continuously praying to be placed where God wanted me to be or a company wherein I can really serve purpose to make Him known. Before I met Christ, I was only considering the pay rate, work schedule, accessibility my home, and the position but now, I am also considering the company values and if it will compromise my Christian walk. I am also considering not just the accessibility to my home but also the accessibility to CCF Eastwood and CCF Main. Having a CCF nearby would be a plus already. I am also quite torn of applying to either a big and well-known company and just follow its structure or go for somewhere small and starting up so that I could contribute more in its growth. I really like it when I see my contributions becoming viable – it validates my purpose;  That is why I’m okay to plunge in a small company and maybe a company that doesn’t make too much noise or just subtle in its industry peformance.

If there is something I could share to other job seekers like me, the company name is not worth it if you cannot glorify God or the prestigious company name will never be worth it if it will corrupt your character. Don’t get me wrong, there are great huge companies out there that will definitely bring you good, just make sure you go where God is leading you to go because it is where He can truly guide and sustain you in your work-life. Believe me when I say that the best company branding is its employees. The employees will eventually radiate the culture and values of the management.

So what Am I doing for the past week? I am faithfully waiting. Well, I have been applying but I am not stressing myself out. I praise God for the rest and peace in my heart. He has been sustaining me with provisions and support from family and friends. I am not stopping seeking Him and His plans for me as I only live according to His Will.

“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.”

Matthew 6:33 NLT

So while patiently waiting, I finished my HR Mentoring Program which I will talk more about next time. I finished the program unbelievably strong placing 7th on my batch. Believe it or not, I let the Holy Spirit answer some of the exam questions and I will never top that without its help. I will also need to pay for the program very soon. So glad that they are patient and accommodating until I could settle it. It is also a blessing that God allowed me to volunteer, which again, I will share next time. Lol.

These past few days, I thank God for all the lessons in humility that He has been teaching me. It was difficult at first to admit that I still don’t have a new work to transfer to but I know God is preparing me for something else. I am really praying to God to prepare me for whatever I am praying for.

“So humble yourselves under the mighty power of God, and at the right time he will lift you up in honor. Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour. Stand firm against him, and be strong in your faith. Remember that your family of believers all over the world is going through the same kind of suffering you are. In his kindness God called you to share in his eternal glory by means of Christ Jesus. So after you have suffered a little while, he will restore, support, and strengthen you, and he will place you on a firm foundation.”

1 Peter 5:6-10 NLT

This is total surrender for my part and I am totally dependent with God who never fails to provide. Please pray for me as I continue the job search, strength, and that may I never lose my eyes on Jesus – the perfector of my Faith.

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