He is Able.
I always find my daily Devo a good source to align and check if I am still on the right path but this time, I found it comforting that God has been speaking to me amidst my troubled mind.
“Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think.” Ephesians 3:20 NLT
These past few months, I have been in a constant struggle, hustle, and bustle in life, not just ministry but also in work. It’s as if I am racing through time with everything and I feel like I am always rushing against time. I am fully aware of my Time Management mishaps and I am slowly accepting that I have turned into someone I’m actually not. I used to be strict on time and I hate procrastinating; I really don’t know what happened and it now became too constant and absolute to face head-on. I have been praying for my work, my workplace, and God’s actual Will for my career path. I know God placed me where I am right now and maybe I am not praying hard enough and continuously fighting my daily battles using my own strength – which turned out not pretty well. I know that whatever I am experiencing right now is a worship issue and I am praying for Jesus to touch my troubled heart and hug me as tight as He could.
Funny as it seems, but I think my mid-life crisis kicked in late. Lol. Seriously, a lot has been affected ever since I failed to manage this God’s gift; I honestly couldn’t bear the fact that I’m actually failing on things I am not fully capable of doing and losing chances and time to catching up on the main reason I hopped in. I did try to learn about it and actually immersing myself in the process but I am still falling short. Maybe I am really taking everything in my own strength and not seek any help from the Holy Spirit. I am losing sleep every now and then, and for what? A half-baked product and worse, might not bring me any good results at all. This wrong view of working smart and working hard brought me nothing but scars on my health, my family, and my spiritual disciplines. I know this has got to stop and I have to do something about this.
“Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need. “So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.” Matthew 6:33-34 NLT
I was reminded of this verse and it struck me head on. What Am I doing? Why Am I putting God second to anything or anyone? It is quite ironic that I believe that God will support me in anything and everything as long as it will bring Him Glory but I have to admit that I am a stubborn daughter of God. God is in control over everything as He is sovereign – I know and I trust Him with my life but why can’t I just lift everything up to Him? I am getting tired of taking my daily battles alone and with my own strength. I have to admit that I am failing and that I need help. I got on my knees and prayed hard about it. God spoke to me in a way that I know only He could say to me.
“Stand firm Let nothing move you. Always give yourselves fully to the work of the Lord, because you know that your labor in the Lord is not in vain.” 1 Corinthians 15:58 NIV
God intended me to be still and fully depend on Him as my God. I committed myself to my Bible reading and quiet time every morning and I have shared how I do my quiet time here in one of my blog posts. I cannot keep on running and chasing for the wrong reasons. I will always keep ending up tired and fed up for nothing.
I admire Jesus’ heart. I admire how He never gave up and I know will never give up on me as long as I seek Him and His glory. It always brings me tears when I think how constant God’s love is for us. God is unchanging and unparalleled. His love is unchanging and unparalleled. God is love.
“Long ago the Lord said to Israel: “I have loved you, my people, with an everlasting love. With unfailing love, I have drawn you to myself.” Jeremiah 31:3 NLT
Amidst the clutter on my mind, I thank God for always helping me focus. I know he burdened my heart to actively participate in this year’s Freshmen Orientation at my Alumni University and He made sure to renew my strength and stamina over and over and over. He blesses me with provision and guidance all throughout my days and I could never think of anyone else who could do it except Him. Honestly, I am scared for my prayer points when it comes to my work but I am lifting everything to Him and I know that my Faith is bigger than my fears. I am carefully thinking things through and it may take me a long time to discern my next actions but I know it’ll be coming from my Father God.
If I were my old self, I wouldn’t be even blabbering about this instead, I would just rant about everything that is wrong in the world and just completely do the solution I think best. Lol. Well, I got more scared thinking about what I could do if I were still my old self. I am now mindful of the end results that it must glorify God’s name in whatever I will do – not my glory, but His. Praise God for renewing my heart and mind!
I know God is able and He is in control of everything all because of His sovereignty. I have to accept the corrections on my pride and self-sufficiency and let go of the controls. Please continue to pray for me as I lift everything to Jesus; I praise Him for allowing me to find peace and joy in Him. I know I cannot do this alone and apart from Christ.
Oh dear Lord, The Will be done.
Now, how can I pray for you?