Hello! How are you? It has been a very long while since I last updated and I can’t deny the fact that I miss sharing stories with you guys. I am still working on my fulltime job and continuously looking after myself through dancing to BTS songs which led me to compile them in 3 parts on my Youtube channel. It helped me with the exercise that I needed to somehow get in shape. I also had the downtime in studying Nihongo but I am continuing my shows – both Animé and KDramas. It just seems like this story has been lingering in my head for quite a while now that it gave me the burden to share this amazing story on how God has been blessing my DGroup and I am truly blessed to witness all of these, right in front of my eyes, in 360 and in full color.
In a previous blog post wherein I shared my hearts and rants on discipling, I shared my initial struggles as I obey the Lord’s call. From that perspective, God revealed to me that it will never be within my control on whatever it is happening during my discipleship journey. I started with 4 ladies and it wasn’t an easy journey. 4 different personalities with different perspectives that I must pray to lead them towards one true gospel. I knew that I have shared accountability on my ladies’ spiritual journey and growth which I thought I had already surrendered to the Lord – but it turns out, I haven’t yet. As a DGroup Leader, I met a few bumps on the road wherein I am questioning myself as a leader. All of the struggles mentioned in my previous blog, I felt the impact of it on my leadership. I felt disappointed in myself and even thought of no longer opening the group for more ladies and just focus on those who are consistently present since we were already together for a year. I was more concerned about my ladies’ growth than mine and I never knew how wrong it was affecting my discipleship.
I kept on ranting my heart out towards God on being discouraged and every time I cry out a prayer, He does something amazing; something that I know only God can do and can provide. Again, He answers prayers in His own intentional way. Every prayer about discouragement in discipleship, God gives me encouragement in an instant. He sends me another lady to disciple. I was like, ‘Lord, why? I am discouraged not to continue entertaining new ladies to focus on the current members, you know that’s in my heart, and still you’re giving me a new lady to disciple?’ At first, I couldn’t understand why. I was still discouraged and still cried another prayer, the same thing happened. Another lady was given to my group. I knelt in prayer about this 5 times… yes, five times. On my sixth time praying about accepting everything God has been doing, He gave me another lady. And yes, I met 6 new ladies. From my original 4 ladies (whom 3 are active), they became 9 in a span of a month or so. Sometimes I feel like God has His funny bone. I found the humor and the lesson at the same time. For the first 5 times, God was really teaching me something and on the 6th time, maybe He was checking my heart about it. A resounding “Focus on Me alone” was a common impression during my quiet time.
Let your eyes look directly aheadProverbs 4:25-27 NASB
And let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you.
Watch the path of your feet
And all your ways will be established.
Do not turn to the right nor to the left;
Turn your foot from evil.
God impressed on my heart that I am only a messenger, a facilitator, and a planter of seeds. The main event of allowing the seeds to grow is still on Him. That I must focus on my spiritual growth while obeying Him. That I am also a plant allowed to grow by God’s grace. I should just continue pressing forward towards Jesus and He will work on the rest.
So then neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but God who causes the growth.1 Corinthians 3:7 NASB
It is now 6 months since the breakthrough of the pandemic here in the Philippines and I think I can say that somehow, we have already adjusted the way of life; just to get by on a daily basis without hampering the necessary activities like work, family errands, worship services, and most especially DGroup meetings. March this year was our last DGroup meeting “physically” and up to the present, we are meeting virtually. During this pandemic, God gave me 3 more ladies to disciple making them 12 in total – I know, wow. Malaki ata tiwala sa akin ni Lord.
Each lady in our DGroup is a blessing to the group itself. Each of their lives is teaching everyone something new moreover, we get to hear and witness more of God’s testimony in our lives. From securing a job, forming their own DGroups (yes, bearing fruits), aligning one’s mental, emotional, and spiritual well-being, getting married, and even managing multiple opportunities in life. All by God’s amazing power and grace! I still do get discouraged sometimes because of the attendance due to individual priorities but seeing these lovely faces during our DGroup meetings, always reminds me of how God encouraged me back then. We are now on GLC Book 6 and by God’s grace, consistent with our meetings and monthly game day. Yes, we take breaks to have fun and do fellowship even virtually. Lol. I became more interested in learning more about the Bible than before and I am practicing each to lead the group sessions as well. We are all growing towards Christlikeness, only in God’s allowable pace and time. Focus on those who attend, focus on the Lord.
For whoever is reading this, I may not know what you are going through as a disciple or a discipler, or maybe someone who is looking for a DGroup, may this help as an encouragement to you. Our leadership depends on our prayerfulness and God had taught me in a way only He can orchestrate. I sometimes think that there is no such thing as “blessing in disguise” but only “blessing we failed to recognize”. Let me know if you think so too. 🙂
If you are a disciple, pray about leading. Once you are called, you’ll know it and never deny it. God will always equip those He calls (Hebrews 13:21). If you are a DGroup Leader already, be still (Psalm 46:10). Hold on to His promises and continue running the race (Hebrews 12:1-3). If you are looking for a DGroup, I’ll share a link below where you can actually sign up and find a group for you. I also shared in a previous post how DGroups are important as Spiritual Mirrors.
Let me know how can I pray for you. 🙂