Of Hearts and Rants

This is a story of how God blessed me with my lovely disciples and how much of the rants I used to answer Him just because I didn’t want to become a DGroup Leader just yet. Yes, this is about the perks and struggles of a DGroup Leader — from my point of view.

I made this post header and showed this to my DGroup and surprisingly, they got excited about it. Maybe this post is something that needs to be read for those who are currently “praying” if they’ll listen to Jesus’ calling of making disciples of all nation.

“Jesus came and told his disciples, “I have been given all authority in heaven and on earth. Therefore, go and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit. Teach these new disciples to obey all the commands I have given you. And be sure of this: I am with you always, even to the end of the age.”” Matthew‬ ‭28:18-20‬ ‭NLT‬‬

This is the Great Commission that the Lord Jesus gave His disciples before He left earth to join God the Father in Heaven. He instructed us to make disciples all for God’s glory – all we need to do is to obey.

As many people know, I am stubborn. I am stubborn to obey especially when I think it’ll affect my convenience. Honestly, I think people would just volunteer to do something or obey depending on their convenience; Hey, we are adults. We always think WIIFM or “What’s in it for me?”

If you happen to know my story on how I met my DGroup, there had been a lot of struggles and apprehensions and to tell frankly, I avoid too many cliques because “magastos” lol. Don’t get me wrong, I admire my DGroup leader and other DGroup leaders who are not on the watch when it comes to spending for their disciples. But just a heads-up, I never listed “budget” as a struggle because God already saved me from the prison of money when He paid off my Credit Card debt. Moreover, I was afraid to get too close to other people because I don’t like overnights and I sometimes get easily irritated with clingy cliques.

I have experienced the support, the love, the acceptance and the family that looks after not just for the friendship and sisterhood created but the lives changes because of Christ. I wasn’t really open to this whole-heartedly as I am being stretched in patience, budgeting, and even in my values. I realized that being in a DGroup is a lot of ways different than being in a barkada. DGroups are not barkadas and I know this is may last forever.

While I am learning more about the Bible and God’s words, I am also learning a lot of myself especially when I became a DGroup leader. There had been constant surprises that even I did not know I could do – I thank the Holy Spirit for it as I am nowhere capable of any of this!

My DGroup upline had and has always been a source of great encouragement and I thought I could never be the one who provides for them. I believe that you can never give what you never have. That is why I am so thankful that Jesus had and has been constantly filling me with what I need. My calling to leading other ladies did not come in one snap. I prayed about it and praise God for the breakthrough.

First struggle, how could I encourage someone to join me in a DGroup when I was difficult to invite in? Surprisingly, God knew my heart to lead and obey Him that is why He never gave me a hard time on it.

After the BTLR 2018, I was encouraged by these ladies through their prayers for me to lead them. I felt the acceptance of these ladies that no matter the imperfections I am seeing within me, they are willing to grow with me in Christ. I really teared up in prayer learning that these ladies are talking amongst themselves and praying for me to lead them as I have inspired and encouraged them through B1GFridays.

If your gift is to encourage others, be encouraging. If it is giving, give generously. If God has given you leadership ability, take the responsibility seriously. And if you have a gift for showing kindness to others, do it gladly. Romans 12:8 NLT

Second struggle, Accountability. I never understood accountability back then and I thought people are just snooty in getting their noses in other people’s businesses. I was terrible, promise. But God thawed my heart and gave it a 180-degree change.

Let us think of ways to motivate one another to acts of love and good works. And let us not neglect our meeting together, as some people do, but encourage one another, especially now that the day of his return is drawing near. Hebrews 10:24-25 NLT

I kept on being reminded the benefits of being in a DGroup and mainly, you start to meet your Spiritual Mirror who can show you who you really are deep inside. Again, as much as you would want to serve all-day long and all you want, we must all remember the importance of leading a DGroup – Word first then Work. In order for the lead, I learned that I must be first secured to my salvation. What if I met someone who thinks JUST LIKE ME? Oh boy, I am indeed scared to meet off guard with someone like me who thinks strongly of the wrong faith.

Leading a DGroup is never easy. Every decision needs praying and no hasty decisions may lead to a harmonious result in the end. This leads to my third struggle – Schedule. Selecting the schedule must be a compromise and never one-sided. The love you received from God because you obeyed Him lead is magnanimous! I never imagined that God would use me like this and I will be forever thankful.

“If you fully obey the Lord your God and carefully keep all his commands that I am giving you today, the Lord your God will set you high above all the nations of the world. Deuteronomy 28:1 NLT

Fourth Struggle, Lesson Plan. To those who really know me, I never wanted to be a teacher that’s why I became a Trainer. Believe me when I say that I can name a million difference between the two. So there, I have the ladies and schedule – but where should I start? Praise God for #LIFEGOALS and it became a very handy tool to start everything. Right after, things fell right into place. Doing this blog post is making me laugh as I recall all of these struggles – Oh, Lyza, of little Faith! Lol.

Fifth Struggle, Spiritual Growth. Well, first and foremost, I need to be grounded to what should be our objective why we meet in a DGroup – and that is to grow more in Christ. Being a DGroup leader made me do constant heart checks and more frequent alignments with God. Having them complete was a struggle but hey, my God is bigger than this! I have been mourning for this group ever since we started and it always ends up in delight and in complete awe to God’s supremacy. Being a DGroup Leader made me grow more in Christ because out of the love I am constantly receiving from Jesus’ works in my life, I couldn’t stop learning more about Him and falling in love with Him over and over again.

Please continue to pray for our DGroup for more strength, guidance, and wisdom to allow us to flee from the distractions of the world, flesh, and the devil. Pray for us that we may all finish strong with the quality of real leaders and catchers of me whom God has called to point them to His son, Jesus.

My reward, I guess, is not the provisions, not the favors, and not these ladies honoring me. I see that my reward is their spiritual growth. I am not looking into the quantity but of course, quality.

My only prayer for them is that may they see Christ’s wonders in their lives and to not stop passing it forward to those whom they can see their past selves to.

Be a DGroup Leader, it may not be easy but sure is rewarding!

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