New Season

It has been a year since I last posted, and much has changed. After the ectopic pregnancy, my perspective shifted. At first, I told myself I wasn’t pressuring myself to have a baby, yet I updated my husband about my period every month. While I hoped each cycle might bring different news, disappointment followed. Trusting God’s plans, my husband and I shifted our focus this year to expanding our ministry. We prayed for our discipleship group to deepen and dedicated this year to serving our church. I was blessed to lead Women2Women CCF Eastwood, my husband facilitated in MoveMENt, and together we served in ACROSS Family Ministry.

We opened a business, and we both knew it would never be a walk in the park, but we are blessed by the support our loved ones give us through and through. We were able to navigate our dynamics as husband and wife in the business and practice being on each other’s backs despite everything. We are continually praying for strength, wisdom, and financial provision as we venture into the business space. I also tried to stay active on my other social media accounts; however, there is still an undeniable peace in silence that I love. 

Looking back, it has been a year since I felt bad and blamed myself for the things that happened, despite the fact that I declared my dependence on God. Reflecting on this journey, it is only after a year that I could mock myself for being a hypocrite and not being able to walk the talk as I study the scriptures. It is ‘human’ of me to find blame for my misery behind the smiles and fake contentment. I truly praise the Lord for picking me up again from the slums of my despair. I knew I couldn’t do it alone, and I needed the Lord. Only through faith was I able to accept my circumstances and move forward from where I fell. I was ultimately reminded of my prayer back then — even if God does not, I will continue to praise Him. It was a burden that I had to carry, unknowingly, over the year. 

With all of this behind me, a new season has begun. While I can’t share many details about this transition yet, I plan to do so in the future. I am holding back tears of praise for how God planted a desire in my heart to align mine with His. Obedience truly brings blessings; even though that truth was unclear to me at the time, I am thankful that God allowed me to make it through. Jesus has never given up pursuing my heart despite my weaknesses. Who am I to disregard the fact that I am saved beyond what I can imagine?

Yes, a new season has begun. I look forward to sharing more of God’s story in my life. Will you be here to read it?